Yesterday

I went to Six Flags with Ateh Katrina, Tiff, Jayr, Vincent & Mikey & Ateh Katrinas cousins. It was supherrr fun because I haven't been there in forevs. It was kinna weird tho because I felt left out because it would always be Vincent Mikey Katrina & Tiff. Because they were partners. Its awkward with me & jayr because .. yeahh. But idk whatevs I had funn I'm still tired from it .

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Wow its been almost a week since I've written. Hmm , I have nothing to say. I miss my REAL dad but I hate him. Urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ! IDGAF ! Mannn whatevs. idk what to write about right now.




Happy Birthday FionaHo <3 I love you Babyyyyyy !

twinnieHOE

Yesterday was BootySistaa Kat's Birthday. It was fun (: There was a little drama but whatevs. Then TwinnieHOE slept over after sooo long ! That hoe. I've been wanting a G necklace so I asked Twinnie to come with me & adventure somewhere. We were gonna go to Pasadena but instead we went to Burbank. It was fun going around & looking & shopping. I found a G charm. Luckily I have a silver chain at home to put it on. Baby might get me a nicer chain tho. Spending the day with Twinnie was a good day. I haven't spent time with her in awhileeeee ! I miss my Girlfriend. =/ Hopefully I see her soon

whatevs

These past few days have been good days. Trying to get by because I haven't seen Gerald for over a week now. His birthday was yesterday (:<3 But I didn't get to surprise him like I wanted to because he's in Chino hills. I was really fucked up last night. Leave it at that. LMAO! Today I didn't go to practice because I was throwing up alottt -_- Fiona came to my house after practice & we got ready & went out. She's going to Hong Kong for 2 weeks =/ She's leaving me. SIGH* We hung out with Kuyah Kevin & Jeff. We binded . Even though I kept leaving Kuyah for the Lil Homie Kevin. After Fiona had to leave , I went to Lina & Lil Homie Kevin. Tjey are the cutest couple evaaaaa ! (: I hung out with them for the rest of the night. & then Lina had to leave so Vincent picked me & kevin up & we home. It was a whatevs day.


I reallllllllly miss my Baby =/
< /3

Urrrrrrrrrgghhhhh

Today was a longgg & tiring day . I had 3rd day of hell week practice til 2. Then after me & Bryan went to McDonalds to eat. Then I walked back to school & he went home. I fell asleep during the gymnastics class they were having while I was waiting for my dance class to start. I had dance class from 4 - 6. It was really tiring. But reaally fun ! We did things that I used to do in ballet. Im still a little rusty =/ It's okay my goal is to get better again ! After I got home I took a shower & got in to my pj's. 30 minutes later I get a call from Maryjane telling me shes going to pick me up in 10 mintues. So with the quickness I got ready. We had to wait for Mikaay to get home so we decided to visit Chi for a bit. After we went to go get this stereo at Oliver's house. Then we picked up Janelle at some 7-11. Nestor's dad was being a bitch & said he had to be home at 9 & it was already 8:40 so we decided to take Janelle home. On the way there was terrible -_- So we got into a little accident. Nestor was trying to change lanes [ he's a very good driver btw ] & Some dumbass asian guy wasn't paying attention & sped up & that made Nestor hit him or whatever. Urgh he's gonna call insurance. That guy had a fucked up car anyways. And its not like the car got dented. It was just the paint got on the car. I took pictures. But it's on Twinnie's camera lmao. This sucks but whatevs. Urgh. I feel realy bad I should have made him take me home first =/ IM SORRY NESTOR IF YOU EVER READ THIS ! I REALLY AM SORRY.

Tomorrow is Baby's Birthday <3 But I'm not going to get to see him . *sigh

Mightttty Fun

Second day of hell week ; it was pretty chill but we got through a lot. After practice Fiona Ho came over & I got ready. Then Kquez came over then we went to Americana. I took the bus because I was so lazy (x & They walked. I met up with Maryjane , Mikaay & Nestor at the Marketplace . Then I met up with Fiona Kquez & Pow pow. We ate Pinkberry<3 Yummmy. Cuteee guy only in his uniform right Fifi? Lmao ! <3 At Pinkberry Ksy met up with us & we went to Jamba Juice. Ksy & Kquez got free drinks -_- I really wanted to buy a G necklace for Baby's initials so we decided to go to the mall. We walked around everywhere. Lids, Claires, Target Icing.. ect. We stopped my the Apple Store & took 84 pictures exactly ! WOOOW ! We whored out that computer hahaha ! After that we went to the Dog store. Or like Ksy likes to call it the PET STORE. I fell in love with this white puppy. I don't know what kind of dog it was but it was so cuteeee ! After while we decided to head over to the Americana. We looked around Urban Outfitters & XXI . haha We tricked Powpow saying it was Forever 24 & that the V fell off (: He's so cuteee. After while walking around we got hungry so we ate ay Great Khans. Damn me & Kquez stacked our noodles high ! Haha I tried helping Ksy with his & Fiona's platee but it didn't really work out. After eating Fiona's mother took us all home. My day was good (: I love days like this ; where you just bond with people you LOVEE <3

OMG ! Amy didn't abort ! WOOHOO ! But wtf who wants to get married at 15? o.O Tune in for the next episode next week. The Secret Life of an American Teenager. <3

My day looked like this :

MusicFest08

MusicFest O8 was last night (: It was greaaaat ! Some singers were good & some were uhmm yeah not so good. Trina invited me & good thing I didn't go out Saturday so I went with her Charles & Marlon. It was funn (: I saw Ateh Nicole there too !! <3 Aj Rafael sang .. Cathy & Randolf .. Russell & others. I only named the singers I liked lmao (x

As for today .. ehh its whatevs. I haven't talked to Baby all day >.< No call no text & no responses. Varsity girls had no practice we just volunteered for this carwash. I didn't wash cars. I helped out the disabled kids that attended that school. It was so touching. I mean I'm so lucky for who I am. Because they have it harder. I was seriously touched(:<3 && I GOT 4 HOURS OF COMMUNITY SERVICE FOR JUST LIKEE COLORING & PLAYING THE PIANO LMAO (:

partaaaay !!

It's kinaa nice to be home. The Debut last night was awesome (: I OFFICIALLY have a lookalike sister named Ceej<3 She's so pretty (: Haha. The day was a longgg day. Woke up at 8 to shower before all the relatives in the house did. The girls had to get their hair done at the salon. After we went back to the house to get dressed & get make-up on. After that we all met up at the hotel the party was being hosted at. As soon everyone was there we got into our HUMMER LIMO (; We were high rollin` to Mandalay Bay to take some court pictures. I must say we were having one heck of a party in the limo itself. After pictures when went back to the hotel & practiced our dances once through & then re-touched make-up & everything to get ready before the party started. The party was funnnnn. Good food. Dancing with NEW friends && family was good. It was all good. Even the after party.. I didn't sleep til like 7 in the morning & people woke me up at 9. My new friend from San Diego ; Joseph , he drove me home. What a nice guy. LMAO ! HAPPY 18YJ BIRTHDAY GERMAINE !<3

Tonight is Erick//Babyboy's Super 16 birthday. I'm too tired to go. But I hope it's crackeeen for everyone else thats going.
Pictures from debut will be up SOON !

rise & shine

Since I too a nap late yesterday afternoon I couldn't sleep til about 3 or 4 =/ I fell asleep in the living room watching Fresh Price. I was awakened at 6 ish because those annoying kids cartoons on Nick.. Blaaah . I fell back asleep & I woke up an hour later cold so I decided to go to my room upstairs. By 7:30 I still didn't get my phone call so I texted Baby. he didn't set an alarm so he was late for school =/ I got ready & bussed it to school & got there around 9:30 . I performed around 10. Then went home around 11 . I'm off to Oxnard for 2 days. Seeee yah !

& I was lazzy

Got the daily morning call. Went back to sleep til about 11:30 ? Baby calls me asking what I was doing & he asked me to come over. So I went to his around 12 ish ? & then I had practice at 1 til like 2:30 but me Nina & Ksy lagged it leaving. We went to go eat at in n out (: It was reeaaaaal gooood! Then Nina dropped me off at home & I knocked the fuck out . I asked Baby to wake me up at 5. But I wanted to sleep more so he let me sleep. I slept til like 7:20 (: 3 hour nap ! Haha . That was pretty much my day. Hopefully I get some night visits (:

shake of the day

Today was a good day (: Woke up to my usual morning phone call from Baby<3 Did a favor for Ateh Jasta & then went back to sleep & got another phone call from Baby<3 Around 11:42 ? There was an EARTHQUAAAKEEE ! It wasn't bif but wow it was pretty powerful because it knocked down some picture frames off the shelves in the living room . My mom was being mean & she wouldn't let me out of the house after & finally she let me go to practice. Practice was sooooo chill (: I liked it ! We learned a section for Thursday rally (: I'm excited weeee ! After practice Ateh Kellie came ovaa. It was a reunion for " WE FLY HIGH " I missed her. We haven't talked much since school ended. We talked for a bit & catch'd each other up about our lives. Then I ate dinna & she was on the computer & then we BAKED A CAKE. There is never a time when we're togethaa & we don't bake a cake. It's like a MUST for us (: It was really funnnnn <3 I'm excited for tomorrow ! Practice & then see Baby<3 Dinaa perhaps(:




We made a cutee cake this time (:

typical

Just rumors & moreee lies. Just tryna break us . Its kinaa getting old. (: Practice tomorrow ; I missed today

the dark knight

me & the godsister& cousins slept hellllllaaaa late . we woke up early to get ready for practice. it was a drag. i didnt wanna be awake so damn early. but then like when we planned to go shopping i got excited. me ateh gem, ateh elaine, & two debut court females went to the ventura mall. it was pretty funn. i only have $18 dolllas outta 50 left =/ its okayyyyy , it was funn shopping. then we went to go watch dark knight & it was pretty goood. i give it a 10 . but i felt toooo long but it was realllyyy good. lmao.

eeeeh , i got bad news. i dont know what to believe actually.. i wish things didn't have to be so complicated. so much for happy 4 weeks =/

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posted for the weekend at my godsister's house. it feels good to be around the family <3 to eat endlessly. to act dumb & laugh loud. even though i complain its boring at times, or i say i wanna go home.. i miss moments like this. it GREAT ! i needed to get out of the smogg filled air

Thursday & Friday

Thursday I spent my day with Baby<3 We went to the mall to buy his shoes because he's been wanting black chucks but he NEVER buys them because he always finds something else to buy but I MADE him buy his shoes. We walked around the mall like 74923748923 times because we had nothing to do. He wanted to buy me something but I passed. Then we asked his brothaa Gilbert to pick us up & then he took us to their friend's house [ Robert ]. After we went to Daddie Nestor's for like an hour or so. They bought me Mickey D's. For some reason that's all I eat when I'm with them ! Ima get fat because of them (x After we went to pick up Mommie Maryjane. The boys blazed I smelled like weed -_-" But then I had to go home to get my stuff ready to sleepover Girlfriend's. @ Girlfriends Ateh Jasta asked her dad if we can go to club & HE ACTUALLY SAID YES ! Haha. So then we got ready & all that good stuff. Club was crackeeeeen my nigguh ! We worked em nigguhs (; Shit went down but all i got to say is , BITCH FOSHO IT AINT OVAAA! BUT HANDLE YOUR OWN GAH DAMN SHIT !

Friday was chillllllllll (: The CERRITOS boys came to GLENDALE ! Haha. Kyle & Ading Mary are so fuckeeen cuteeee (: I was their camera person because im nice like that . I swear I took the best pictures evaaa ! But it was nice hanging out with my girls & nice bonding with Kyle. Because since everyone left me Kyle Mary & Diana.. When Mary & Diana had to leave I was stuck with that nigguh. But he's pretty chill. I was drillin him so he better not hurt my ading . I went home around 10 ? Maryjane drives pretty well now (: But she almost killed us ! haha SHARP TURN ! haha

-- PICTURES UP LATAAAA (;*

Lost

I've officially think Ima lose it. Honestly, I think Satin is trying to weaken me in the knees so I can fall & he can get his pleasure out of it. My relationships with everyone has crumbled. Maybe to a point where its just fake smiles & hi's & bye's & occasional "i miss yous." Varsity practices have been a struggle because I can't get certain things right. Beach trips been pulling me away from going out with the othaas. Debut practices leave excluded from all the binding times my friends have. Seriously, I don't have time to even see my damn sister ! & She's blood. =/ It's supposed to be family first but I haven't even spoken to her. Maybe for a week now. I'm seriously weakening at the knees. Every little thing is getting to me when it shouldn't. I'm not the person to say I get easily annoyed. But lately, I am. If your ever around me, & I'm being a bitch. I really don't mean it. I don't know whats coming over me. Maybe I over think things? Idk. I haven't hung out with Mommmiee Trina && Dadddieee Charles. & They always had me at my weakest points. There was never a time where one wasn't there to wipe away tears. My own "BESTEST" can't tell me shit no more. That's how bad our friendship is. My Biggie Me <3 We haven't spoken in awhile either. & She's supposed to be my role model. Even my relationship with "The Boys" I haven't spent much time with the Kevins. Or Bryan =/ & those are my brothers/boys <3 & Mighty/Ramon.... I don't even wanna talk about it. But all I can say is that I PROMISED ID NEVER LEAVE OR FORGET YOU. thass my wordddd. Before the summer ends I hope all relationships are rekindled. Because like this ima go INSANE.

I miss the GOOD times

Honeydew Boba

Today was Janelle's birthday<3 We ate CPK & bonded with the people & all that good stuff. Then I had my mood swing >.< I hate when I get them because sometimes I don't really know whats wrong with me & everyone always asks. So I asked Edward & Brohoe Mikey to take me home. I even kinda cried because Edward wouldn't understand my sarcasm -_- But it was because everything was already building up. I don't know what it was but it made me want to cry. Honestly , I don't know whats coming over me. I miss how friendships USED to be. I miss how family relationships USED to be. I miss Gerald<3 =/ To be honest, I miss my Brothaa Mighty most. We haven't really spoken much since school ended. A few hi & byes here & there. Some short phone calls maybe once a week. Things haven't been the same. Nothing really ever is. Even my friendship with Bestest isn't treal anymore. We barely talk. & if we do we always say we're gna talk to each other more often again but we never do. Seriously I don't know whats legit anymore. But today Chi bought me boba<3 & everyone knows that when someone buys me boba it makes my day. So it was alllll good.

& Brothaaa I miss you =/

& lately

I've been trying to control my feelings & GirlfriendAnica has been my only comfort <3 & Im glad I have a BestFriend like her ! Honestly, I'd be nothing without her. She has showed me what TRUE friends really mean. Because I've been fucked over so many times & there was never a time where Anica has let me down. Through all the shit we've been through, I can always go to her. She got my back like a Jansport Backpack. & I got hers. Ayee Cups got nothing on us HDUBz ! (;
OH OH ! && Stretching in practice = SEX POSITIONS !


&& shit going around with my " mannn " its fuckeen dumb & really I must say can people get a lifee ! Im tried of shit talking. Or assuming ! Its really dumb & immature. I reallyyyyyy hate what happened yesterday. Whomever it was that said shit. At least tell me !

fuck

Monday is always a bad day. Practice is whatevs. We started large military(: WANNA BE ON TOP?!

Fuck , I feel like crying but I'm at Girlfriend's house. So many things going thru my head. What am I supposed to do? Why would people even say sucha thing =/
FUCK IT! I hate being so fuckeen happy because all people do is watch me fall.

Lazy Day

I was awaken by a text message from Hubby John. We happened to bump into each other Friday night. I miss that suckaaa! & then awakened again from Baby's Goodmorning text. After texting for an hour I fell back asleep til 1. I was superrrr lazy. All I did was eat & watch teevee. I went to church & had Girlfriend drop me off . & for the rest of the night I'm still watching teevee. Waiting for Baby to come home from thee movies.
Practice tomorrow -_-

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Woke up at 5:20 for a damn car wash >.< Urgh , Babyy was hungover & bitching at me because I was loud & hurting his head. Only saw him for 5 mintues. I head last nights party was a major COCKFEST! Haha(: Debut practice was bullshit ! I can't wait til its fuckeen overrrrrrrrrrr. Today was a crappy ass day. Nothing more.

Continued

Today was funn(: Well kinda.. I was SUPPOSED to hang out & reunite with babybabes Sarah but yeah she never showed. I saw babyydadddy Christian. I havent seen him since like February ! It was nice talking to him. I missed that bitchass. Urgh the police buzzed killed the session we were supposed to have at ChessPark >.< There was so much drama tho. I wish Brothaa wasn't so blunt towards me =/ NO MORE DRAMA FOR ME ! Im done with that shit. I met some new people. & I took pictures with Rebound. It was allll good. Except when i walked home alone I was being stalked =/ whatevs. Im tired. I miss HIM <3 Once again he hasnt been answering my calls

who knew

I would care so much because you didn't call or text to let me know you were home from hanging out with your friends. I was scared that you didn't even text. It bothered me so much to the point where I didn't even sleep last night. You finally call me in the morning after I left you like 234879823479823 text messages. & you act like nothing was wrong. Idk why I'm even trippin. Maybe because I care? I don't like when you smoke. I don't like when you get high. You said your cutting back on it, but when you ask I can't say no =/ I have NO right to say no. I'm not even your girlfriend. But I care as much as if I was. Baby, understand I care.