rise & shine

Since I too a nap late yesterday afternoon I couldn't sleep til about 3 or 4 =/ I fell asleep in the living room watching Fresh Price. I was awakened at 6 ish because those annoying kids cartoons on Nick.. Blaaah . I fell back asleep & I woke up an hour later cold so I decided to go to my room upstairs. By 7:30 I still didn't get my phone call so I texted Baby. he didn't set an alarm so he was late for school =/ I got ready & bussed it to school & got there around 9:30 . I performed around 10. Then went home around 11 . I'm off to Oxnard for 2 days. Seeee yah !

& I was lazzy

Got the daily morning call. Went back to sleep til about 11:30 ? Baby calls me asking what I was doing & he asked me to come over. So I went to his around 12 ish ? & then I had practice at 1 til like 2:30 but me Nina & Ksy lagged it leaving. We went to go eat at in n out (: It was reeaaaaal gooood! Then Nina dropped me off at home & I knocked the fuck out . I asked Baby to wake me up at 5. But I wanted to sleep more so he let me sleep. I slept til like 7:20 (: 3 hour nap ! Haha . That was pretty much my day. Hopefully I get some night visits (:

shake of the day

Today was a good day (: Woke up to my usual morning phone call from Baby<3 Did a favor for Ateh Jasta & then went back to sleep & got another phone call from Baby<3 Around 11:42 ? There was an EARTHQUAAAKEEE ! It wasn't bif but wow it was pretty powerful because it knocked down some picture frames off the shelves in the living room . My mom was being mean & she wouldn't let me out of the house after & finally she let me go to practice. Practice was sooooo chill (: I liked it ! We learned a section for Thursday rally (: I'm excited weeee ! After practice Ateh Kellie came ovaa. It was a reunion for " WE FLY HIGH " I missed her. We haven't talked much since school ended. We talked for a bit & catch'd each other up about our lives. Then I ate dinna & she was on the computer & then we BAKED A CAKE. There is never a time when we're togethaa & we don't bake a cake. It's like a MUST for us (: It was really funnnnn <3 I'm excited for tomorrow ! Practice & then see Baby<3 Dinaa perhaps(:




We made a cutee cake this time (:

typical

Just rumors & moreee lies. Just tryna break us . Its kinaa getting old. (: Practice tomorrow ; I missed today

the dark knight

me & the godsister& cousins slept hellllllaaaa late . we woke up early to get ready for practice. it was a drag. i didnt wanna be awake so damn early. but then like when we planned to go shopping i got excited. me ateh gem, ateh elaine, & two debut court females went to the ventura mall. it was pretty funn. i only have $18 dolllas outta 50 left =/ its okayyyyy , it was funn shopping. then we went to go watch dark knight & it was pretty goood. i give it a 10 . but i felt toooo long but it was realllyyy good. lmao.

eeeeh , i got bad news. i dont know what to believe actually.. i wish things didn't have to be so complicated. so much for happy 4 weeks =/

<$

posted for the weekend at my godsister's house. it feels good to be around the family <3 to eat endlessly. to act dumb & laugh loud. even though i complain its boring at times, or i say i wanna go home.. i miss moments like this. it GREAT ! i needed to get out of the smogg filled air

Thursday & Friday

Thursday I spent my day with Baby<3 We went to the mall to buy his shoes because he's been wanting black chucks but he NEVER buys them because he always finds something else to buy but I MADE him buy his shoes. We walked around the mall like 74923748923 times because we had nothing to do. He wanted to buy me something but I passed. Then we asked his brothaa Gilbert to pick us up & then he took us to their friend's house [ Robert ]. After we went to Daddie Nestor's for like an hour or so. They bought me Mickey D's. For some reason that's all I eat when I'm with them ! Ima get fat because of them (x After we went to pick up Mommie Maryjane. The boys blazed I smelled like weed -_-" But then I had to go home to get my stuff ready to sleepover Girlfriend's. @ Girlfriends Ateh Jasta asked her dad if we can go to club & HE ACTUALLY SAID YES ! Haha. So then we got ready & all that good stuff. Club was crackeeeeen my nigguh ! We worked em nigguhs (; Shit went down but all i got to say is , BITCH FOSHO IT AINT OVAAA! BUT HANDLE YOUR OWN GAH DAMN SHIT !

Friday was chillllllllll (: The CERRITOS boys came to GLENDALE ! Haha. Kyle & Ading Mary are so fuckeeen cuteeee (: I was their camera person because im nice like that . I swear I took the best pictures evaaa ! But it was nice hanging out with my girls & nice bonding with Kyle. Because since everyone left me Kyle Mary & Diana.. When Mary & Diana had to leave I was stuck with that nigguh. But he's pretty chill. I was drillin him so he better not hurt my ading . I went home around 10 ? Maryjane drives pretty well now (: But she almost killed us ! haha SHARP TURN ! haha

-- PICTURES UP LATAAAA (;*

Lost

I've officially think Ima lose it. Honestly, I think Satin is trying to weaken me in the knees so I can fall & he can get his pleasure out of it. My relationships with everyone has crumbled. Maybe to a point where its just fake smiles & hi's & bye's & occasional "i miss yous." Varsity practices have been a struggle because I can't get certain things right. Beach trips been pulling me away from going out with the othaas. Debut practices leave excluded from all the binding times my friends have. Seriously, I don't have time to even see my damn sister ! & She's blood. =/ It's supposed to be family first but I haven't even spoken to her. Maybe for a week now. I'm seriously weakening at the knees. Every little thing is getting to me when it shouldn't. I'm not the person to say I get easily annoyed. But lately, I am. If your ever around me, & I'm being a bitch. I really don't mean it. I don't know whats coming over me. Maybe I over think things? Idk. I haven't hung out with Mommmiee Trina && Dadddieee Charles. & They always had me at my weakest points. There was never a time where one wasn't there to wipe away tears. My own "BESTEST" can't tell me shit no more. That's how bad our friendship is. My Biggie Me <3 We haven't spoken in awhile either. & She's supposed to be my role model. Even my relationship with "The Boys" I haven't spent much time with the Kevins. Or Bryan =/ & those are my brothers/boys <3 & Mighty/Ramon.... I don't even wanna talk about it. But all I can say is that I PROMISED ID NEVER LEAVE OR FORGET YOU. thass my wordddd. Before the summer ends I hope all relationships are rekindled. Because like this ima go INSANE.

I miss the GOOD times

Honeydew Boba

Today was Janelle's birthday<3 We ate CPK & bonded with the people & all that good stuff. Then I had my mood swing >.< I hate when I get them because sometimes I don't really know whats wrong with me & everyone always asks. So I asked Edward & Brohoe Mikey to take me home. I even kinda cried because Edward wouldn't understand my sarcasm -_- But it was because everything was already building up. I don't know what it was but it made me want to cry. Honestly , I don't know whats coming over me. I miss how friendships USED to be. I miss how family relationships USED to be. I miss Gerald<3 =/ To be honest, I miss my Brothaa Mighty most. We haven't really spoken much since school ended. A few hi & byes here & there. Some short phone calls maybe once a week. Things haven't been the same. Nothing really ever is. Even my friendship with Bestest isn't treal anymore. We barely talk. & if we do we always say we're gna talk to each other more often again but we never do. Seriously I don't know whats legit anymore. But today Chi bought me boba<3 & everyone knows that when someone buys me boba it makes my day. So it was alllll good.

& Brothaaa I miss you =/

& lately

I've been trying to control my feelings & GirlfriendAnica has been my only comfort <3 & Im glad I have a BestFriend like her ! Honestly, I'd be nothing without her. She has showed me what TRUE friends really mean. Because I've been fucked over so many times & there was never a time where Anica has let me down. Through all the shit we've been through, I can always go to her. She got my back like a Jansport Backpack. & I got hers. Ayee Cups got nothing on us HDUBz ! (;
OH OH ! && Stretching in practice = SEX POSITIONS !


&& shit going around with my " mannn " its fuckeen dumb & really I must say can people get a lifee ! Im tried of shit talking. Or assuming ! Its really dumb & immature. I reallyyyyyy hate what happened yesterday. Whomever it was that said shit. At least tell me !

fuck

Monday is always a bad day. Practice is whatevs. We started large military(: WANNA BE ON TOP?!

Fuck , I feel like crying but I'm at Girlfriend's house. So many things going thru my head. What am I supposed to do? Why would people even say sucha thing =/
FUCK IT! I hate being so fuckeen happy because all people do is watch me fall.

Lazy Day

I was awaken by a text message from Hubby John. We happened to bump into each other Friday night. I miss that suckaaa! & then awakened again from Baby's Goodmorning text. After texting for an hour I fell back asleep til 1. I was superrrr lazy. All I did was eat & watch teevee. I went to church & had Girlfriend drop me off . & for the rest of the night I'm still watching teevee. Waiting for Baby to come home from thee movies.
Practice tomorrow -_-

&&

Woke up at 5:20 for a damn car wash >.< Urgh , Babyy was hungover & bitching at me because I was loud & hurting his head. Only saw him for 5 mintues. I head last nights party was a major COCKFEST! Haha(: Debut practice was bullshit ! I can't wait til its fuckeen overrrrrrrrrrr. Today was a crappy ass day. Nothing more.

Continued

Today was funn(: Well kinda.. I was SUPPOSED to hang out & reunite with babybabes Sarah but yeah she never showed. I saw babyydadddy Christian. I havent seen him since like February ! It was nice talking to him. I missed that bitchass. Urgh the police buzzed killed the session we were supposed to have at ChessPark >.< There was so much drama tho. I wish Brothaa wasn't so blunt towards me =/ NO MORE DRAMA FOR ME ! Im done with that shit. I met some new people. & I took pictures with Rebound. It was allll good. Except when i walked home alone I was being stalked =/ whatevs. Im tired. I miss HIM <3 Once again he hasnt been answering my calls

who knew

I would care so much because you didn't call or text to let me know you were home from hanging out with your friends. I was scared that you didn't even text. It bothered me so much to the point where I didn't even sleep last night. You finally call me in the morning after I left you like 234879823479823 text messages. & you act like nothing was wrong. Idk why I'm even trippin. Maybe because I care? I don't like when you smoke. I don't like when you get high. You said your cutting back on it, but when you ask I can't say no =/ I have NO right to say no. I'm not even your girlfriend. But I care as much as if I was. Baby, understand I care.